i was too bored. and i came across this website, that made my eyes teary. and so i gave them a hug. wanna see the website, ask me for it. (: i guess there are many lonely people our there in the world. not only lonely, perhaps people who felt lost. fighting a battle inside is never easy, that is why they would want to share with other people all around the world. though we couldnt do much other than give them a hug. =/

every single time whenever i thought of it, i just keep failing and falling. and i really didnt know what to do, but to continue to battle inside. and it starts making me stop believing. maybe sx was right that i shouldnt think like this. but i just cant help it.


and planning for that thing, makes me feel like an irritant to some ppl. esp. u.
shouldnt have made that phonecall ytd.

alrights im gonna shift to blogger for a private blog. but this will remain as a public blog.
only bfriends invited.
 

 

 

headache headache, the whole entire day, my whole building was full of noise pollution. upstairs and beside were renovating.HOW GREAT! what a good timing mann. but still, i managed to finish 2 chps of ERM. wasnt really in the study mood for the past few days. and i had a bad neck stiff day yesterday which i pretty much end up sleeping almost the whole day. so im gonna finish 3 more chps today and finish up everything by tmr!=D need lots of brain juice and luck luck luck!

anyways, at least i have found out something about myself today. I HATE PLANNING FOR EVENTS. yes totally totally, and thankfully im not in events management course. because i realised it isnt that easy at all. i'll probably talk about it more next time.

was watching the oscars on live in the morning. was suppose to wake up at 8.30am to catch it, but i was too lazy. probably i'll catch the encore tonight. and tonight is the telecast of desperate housewives SEASON 5!!=DDDD so eggcited la!

so much thoughts recently, i guess it's a part of growing up. "the challenges we faced in life, is just a part of our lives and that's how we learnt ." this was said by a very young kid who was physically disabled i think, it was really inspiring. C: i guess everyone comes here for a purpose, we're just all different. but all we want is to be happy.however, there are people in the world who just got the wrong message and doings. i guess nothing's perfect, or even near to it.

i thought i will miss school, but it turned out that i dont at all =/ anyways, im gonna enjoy my holiday o the fullest of the fullest before i go for my internship. =/ and soon everything's gonna end, we all go our separate ways and things change. it's just like history playing it all over and over again. primary sch graduation, secondary school graduation and polytechnic graduation. it's the same thing that we all will go through like so many times. and each time with different people, different emotions. but still, u have to agree that the best part is still during secondary school. i dont know why too, but i guess, during that period of time, we all were learning from each other, growing up, is like we have our backs for each other.

and as we grew older, we try to learn, try to be someone better. try to be a better daughter/son, brother/sister, friend or even just a stranger. we all try, and most of the time we failed. but we never stop trying. i dont know who are the ones who will be there even when im an old women, walking with the help of a walking stick. but there are just some which i certainly hope that by then we would still be sitting in a cafe, chatting and enjoying each other's company. because i know as soon as we all graduate from polytechnic, we would be on different routes. we would be chasing our own dreams, and with lesser meet ups. that is when i hope that day would come that all of us would be together again. like i said, i believe that friendships that last a lifetime, doesnt just end if we all are separated for a while.

there are only a few people whom i feel comfortable hanging out with or just being myself, i guess it's because we know each other and been through so much together already. it's the experiences that matters, not the time or length of the friendship. but i know we still have so much to learn and know about each other. never have the thought that u know someone like really know that someone, because it isn't true. if u know someone too well already, that would probably be the end of the journey.

OH YES! THE NOISE FINALLY STOPPED!! okie back to mugging!

i forgot to mention that, IT'S EXACTLY ONE MONTH TO THE DAY I AGE BY ONE YEAR AGAIN!!!booohooos!

 

good nights world and s.h.e

ps. i hope they are reading my letter right now! and love the thing i made for them!